Drinking: bottled water
Am in killer pain tonight, burning... aching... pains down my outer thighs, across my upper buttocks/lower back. Both hips.. so painful that it's all I can but cry to cope with the pain.
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I wish I had a husband that gave me massages. I feel so sad about it, I never ask him for one (these days) because he doesn't give me a proper healing massage. I stopped getting ones from physio because people just don't understand my body - I cannot handle the deep tissue pressure of touch. It has to be a gentle massage. I think this is causing me a bit of resentment because it reminds me of an ex who would only give me a massage if I gave him a happy ending one..
I hate this. I hate fibromyalgia. It is the worst most awful thing I have had to suffer with. There is no medication that can relieve the pains of it. There is no restful sleep. There is daily pain on some level. I can't do many physical things these days - washing the dishes kills me, I had no empathy or anyone else tonight, not even my husband. I struggled to wash the dishes, to feed the dogs after dinner, to even make the dinner. I know exactly where I should have been - I should have been in bed, resting my body, smothered in heat bags. It would be so nice to feel hands touching my skin that relieved the pain I feel without hurting me in the process.
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I have been introduced to a tea brand that may assist with a decent night sleep - Twinings Sleep Well the main ingredient that does help with a restful sleep is Linden It suggests it may benefit inflammation and some pain as well as a restful sleep.
The first night I tried it I had one mug of tea, and it felt like i had been drugged, I literally sat on the couch and my eyes kept twitching shut. However when I went to bed I woke up an hour in, and still did not have a good night's sleep.
The second night I tried it, I had two mugs of the tea.. I drank the first one slowly, then got up and made another cuppa. That did the trick, I went to bed - woke up after about an hour (again) and then slept through the rest of the night. And woke up early the next day - too early, I felt so groggy. Good thing I was the passenger in the car and not driving as I drifted off to sleep. very easily.
I am going to do some more research into the Linden component particularly in regards to Fibromyalgia.
